143.8lbs on the scales

Well it looks like it’s gonna take some time to get back to where I was before I skipped that fast day. Part of me thinks “wow, missing even one fast day does a LOT of damage to the low numbers I’ve  been working towards and it’s going to take a lot of time to get to where I was. Missing a fast day is so not worth it” and then this other part of me thinks “meh, you can’t have actually gained a whole lot in reality after just one day out of your routine. Don’t sweat it. It’s just numbers. Your body can’t have changed all that much from just a single day.”

I’m sticking with thought number 2 but also feel grumpy that it’s going to take a long while before my numbers go back to the 142.26 of before  and I can start patting myself on the back again. It won’t matter in the long run, though. If I look at the weight chart back in 2007 or 2008 there was lots of ups and lots of downs even in the trendline, but I was undoubtedly gaining, even during weeks when I was going down. The same is happening now (but the opposite) where a gain here and there doesn’t change the overall downward direction of my regular weigh-ins. This one week when seen as part of a whole year won’t look like any ‘damage’ done at all.

Anyway, enough of the numbers.

Critics of ADF might say that a longer life but with fasting days is not worth the price (who wants to live a longer miserable life, right?)  but I can categorically confirm that fasting does not make you miserable. Not even on the fast days and definitely not on the food days. Today I’m fasting. It is 3.15pm, my hunger is about a 3 out of 10 and I feel great! I might get hungrier over the course of the day but it’s unlikely to be misery-enducing and unbearable.  If it is, I’ll have a small snack but I’ll try to avoid it if I can. Maybe I’m just getting some of that euphoria again.  I say that because I am under immense pressure with my assignment (that I’m totally not ready to write) and have less than a week to do it, I still feel pretty groovy. I don’t seem to have that “I’m so fat” feeling about me anymore. I feel really happy with my body (despite its imperfections). That’s so cool! Turns out I never intended to be perfect, I just wanted to be happy and that’s just what I am. Imperfect but happy about it and I’ll live longer to boot! (with any luck). Keeping those electrolytes in check seems to be important, though.

Still, YAY for euphoria and self-acceptance!

Eats: water | tea |

Exercise: commute in | commute home | push ups (didn’t count ’em. maybe 12?)

Weather: overcast morning, sunny afternoon. 25C. Lovely summer’s day

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